Sure, my life would go on, but how? I thought i'd be with this guy forever. I mean he was my high school sweetheart. Jealousy got the best of me. My countless assumptions. I couldn't live like that though, wondering if the person i'm with it cheating on me, secretly hurting me. No, this was the best decision.
I got several calls from him, saying this and that, I'm being stupid. Maybe I was, maybe he wasn't hiding things from me and it was all in my head. I guess I'll never know now. I had left.
Time passed and I was okay, my friends were there to help me get my mind off of my heartache. I even starting hanging out with a boy from work. And what do you know? I heard my ex boyfriend was talking to the girl who would constantly text him, "being annoying" and such. lol. nice. Whatever.
Time passed and the boy from work asked me out, of course I said yes! He was so handsome, long hair, tan skin, my perfect guy, but Jonathan was always in the back of my head. Sigh. What was wrong with me! I have a great guy in front of me yet i'm thinking about someone who couldn't give to shits about me. Ridiculous.
Dating for what to seemed to be months were only weeks, I started to think of Jonathan less and less. And thinking of my perfect guy more. hold that thought. *vibrate* I check my phone, a text from my friend. "Party at Jonathan's tonight!" Awesome just when I was forgetting that stupid name it comes up.
When am I ever going to escape your wrath, gawdammit.
Thursday, January 8, 2015
My tears came back, they won this time
His phone vibrated, she had texted him.
What the fuck? He said she had been texting him non-stop, being annoying but why would I believe him? He's lied to me before. I couldn't take it anymore. I had to leave. Our nice dinner had turned into a breakdown for me. "Can we have the check, separate please."
We had gotten to my house, I had nothing to say to him. I got out of his car and slammed the door.
"Now what," I thought as I fought back so many tears. My boyfriend of years was gone. I felt so alone. It was just me in my dark room, me and my thoughts. My tears came back, they won this time. I fell asleep to the sound of my tears falling across my face onto my pillow.
What the fuck? He said she had been texting him non-stop, being annoying but why would I believe him? He's lied to me before. I couldn't take it anymore. I had to leave. Our nice dinner had turned into a breakdown for me. "Can we have the check, separate please."
We had gotten to my house, I had nothing to say to him. I got out of his car and slammed the door.
"Now what," I thought as I fought back so many tears. My boyfriend of years was gone. I felt so alone. It was just me in my dark room, me and my thoughts. My tears came back, they won this time. I fell asleep to the sound of my tears falling across my face onto my pillow.
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